Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Weigh in and 6 month post op check up

Last week: 74.5kgs
This week: 73.4kgs
Loss: -1.1kgs (-36.7kgs total)

Very busy weekend.............I have a few photo's and what not to chat about but I'm on my way out now, so "I'll be back".

Monday, November 22, 2010

2nd post today and its only 9am...photo's

Back again.

I got my son to take a few photo's of me before he went to school.
I am terrible at importing photo's but I will try and put the 'before, 3 month, 6 month' for each angle..........he's hoping.





I seem to be getting closer to the camera each time......LOL.





Crikey this side view even amazes me.





WOW.

Here are a couple of photo's of my hair that I was trying to explain in the earlier post. My hair is usually DEAD straight and the hairdresser just did a couple of curls which took her about 3 minutes to create a subtle wave effect which I loved. I on the other hand spent over an hour trying to do this and it looked NOTHING like it........just a straight straw like mess.......*sigh* practise, practise, practise.






And finally I will leave you with a photo of my gorgeous boys who's had 'wacky hair day' on Friday to raise money for the sibling of one of their school mates who has leukemia. The principal offered to shave his head if they raised $1000 and one of the Head teachers said he would get a Number 2 (he has quite long hair) also.
The kids managed to raise $1900 so the principal shaved his head and the Head teacher got a number 1 (shorter than a number 2) haircut.........fantastic school!.


Weigh in

Last weeek: 75.5kgs
This week: 74.5kgs
Loss: 1.0kg (total - 35.6kgs)

Now that's better. I got rid of the 900grams I put on last week plus another 100 grams...........nice!
I did a few days extra walking and made sure I drank my water. Simple things really but time and time again I let them go by the wayside.

I'm off to Wellington this coming weekend for my 6 month check up........I can't believe it has been 6 months, how different I look and FEEL.

I was going to take the kids with me so they could see my sisters and their cousins etc but then thought............Nah, they will see everyone at Xmas plus I don't want them to miss a day of school or their golf lessons on Sunday.
PLUS this will give me more time to maybe visit the 'shops' and have a nice look around without worrying about where they are and what they are up to.
I am also hoping to catch up with a few friends (Jo, I'll text you and maybe we can catch up on Sunday for a coffee at Westfields?) and stay with my mate Jo (another Jo) plus fit in a dinner with my sisters, brother-in-laws etc before my appointments on Monday.

I haven't been to Wellington before as I have always gone back to Hamilton for my follow up appointments, so it sould be interesting what the ladies are like there as I really gelled with the Hamilton girls.
I go for my blood tests tomorrow and I am hoping they are all OK. The only concern I have is that, when I get up I have been getting a few sparkles in front of my eyes and a bit woozy which doesn't sound that great but I have always had low blood pressure so this isn't that much of a biggy BUT it seems to be happening much more than usual. I have been taking my 'pills' daily (which include iron, calcium and a multivitamin) but it will be interesting to see if I'm lacking in anything or if it is just normal.

Had a very quite weekend. Was suppose to go to a 'work do' on Saturday night but hubby wasn't well and decided not to go. He wanted to still take me and drop me off but I hate going to those things alone (even if I know everyone).... dumb eh.
I was dressed and ready to go and was wearing a 'little black dress' with red shoes and long necklace. I think I look quite nice except for my blinkin hair. The hair dresser showed me how to curl it with my hair straightner but after half an hour of trying to curl it, it was straight and horrible looking with a flick here and there.
I will have to practise this technique again before the next one.

I will make sure I take 6 month post op photo's this week as well.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Weigh in

Last week: 74.6kgs
This week: 75.5kgs
Gain: +900 grams (total -34.6kgs)

Oh bugger, I knew last week was too good to be true. I've been quite good this week so, I don't know?????

Not stressing about it at all. (Weird ha?)

This stupid computer of mine is playing up so I'm going to leave it there for today. Might be back later to update.

Monday, November 08, 2010

Weigh in

Last week: 76.8kgs
This week: 74.4kgs
Loss: -2.2kgs (total -35.5kgs)

S H I T

Say it with me everyone --------- WATER IS MY FRIEND!!!!!!!!

What the hell happened there? I haven't had a decent loss like that for AGES and basically all I did was make sure I drank my water everyday (one thing at a time eh). I guess I was a wee bit more active as well but nowhere near as active as I should be, so it had to be the water I reckon.
I also tried not snacking which I think was huge as well as that bad habit was creeping back into my life. Everytime I felt like a snack, I drank water and it looks like it has worked. I love re-focusing!

So I'm now under the 10kg 'left to lose' mark which is amazing and over the 35kg mark 'lost to date'. Didn't think I'd ever hear those words.

Goal this week - MORE OF THE SAME!

Better not hang around here this morning, I have my eldest boys 'Athletic' day and he also made the relay team (very proud) so it will be standing on the school field for a few hours this morning and the weather isn't great so maybe I'll get some exercise in by jumping up and down on the spot to keep warm.......hahaha.

Catch ya later.

Friday, November 05, 2010

Little things

I'm finding the little things are really exciting.

Examples of good things:

My six year old put his arms around me this morning to give me a hug and said "Mum, my arms go all the way around you now and they touch at the back. I like you being skinny Mum"...............*tear*

People at work telling me that my clothes are getting too big and its about time I went and got something smaller....hehehe

My cousin giving me her size 14 'little black dress' because it is too small for her now (and I use to go shopping with her when I was size 22 and she was a 14).

Being able to wear more fitted clothing and NOT constantly pulling them off my tummy and down twards my knees.

Having people I know NOT recognise me in the street (this can occasionally be annoying though).....LOL

Being able to go and have a drink with my husband at the clubrooms after his touch rugby game because I'm not horrified to have any of his friends see how discusting look (he has NEVER felt like this - it has always been in my head).

Being able to bend over and tie my shoelaces up without discomfort and without huffing and puffing when I get up.

Having my rings get too loose (even though this is going to cost me money soon when I have to get them re-sized).

Enjoying more quality (active) time with my family rather than sitting on the couch.

Suck-in underwear...........enough said!


Examples of not so good things:

Not having enough money to just go and buy when I need (not want).....didn't allow for this at all (ie. undies, bra's, work pants, tops). I thought I'd get away with it until I hit my goal weight but even with 'hand me downs' from friends, I'm still finding I don't have enough clothes.

Absolutely NO IDEA how to shop as a slimmer person. Now you think this wouldn't be a 'not so good thing' but I really, honestly have NO IDEA what styles suit me and what cuts to wear. I really don't want to be one of these people who lose weight and then start wearing clothes that aren't appropriate (Mutton dressed as lamb).

Can't handle alcohol. Again this should really be a positive as I'm now a cheap drunk. I can only handle 3 bourbons maximum but when your at a party or BBQ or something like that and we intend to be there quite a few hours, I'm not able to start drinking with everyone else, I have to wait until later in the evening as I only last about an hour once I start drinking and then want to go home.....haha.

Excess skin...........enough said!


The BIGGEST thing to date for me is - I feel normal now.
This operation for me was to get that exact result. I didn't want to be glamoures or change my appearance (ie. hair, dress sense etc), I just wanted to be normal.
I didn't want to stand out in anyway or be the center of a conversation and I think slowly, I am achieving this which makes me really happy.
When I go up to pick the kids up from school now, I look like most of the other Mums there rather than the fat Mum trying to hide in the corner and not make contact with anyone else. When I go out now, I feel confident I look nice and can relax and enjoy the evening rather than constantly fidgeting with my clothes and hiding behind my husband or kids.

Life is good.

I have managed a couple of bottles of water yesterday and doing the same again today. Had a lovely prawn and salad dinner the other night and tonight will also be something tasty and healthy. I get so angry with myself because when I actually do get myself back on track, I feel fantastic...........I guess that is never going to change eh?

Right, off to make some breakfast.

Thursday, November 04, 2010

It's all a bit too easy......

I've had a weird day so far. Good and Bad.

Got up at usual time to the kids fighting....hahaha little buggers.
Jumped on the scales (which I try not to do during the week) and found I was down to 75.5kgs (lets hope that stays the same for next Monday's weigh in) and instantly I was elated to think I was still going down at a steady rate but scared at the same time.
Scared because really, it has all been a bit too easy in the last 6 months. Yes I know I have had a major operation which is suppose to drop weight at the speed of light BUT it doesn't seem to matter what I do (good or bad) I still lose a decent amount of weight and I KNOW it is all going to come crashing down soon.

My eating and exercise has been so relaxed that I am now not worried if I have protein with one of my meals or don't go for a walk etc because I'm going to lose weight anyway............BAD WAY TO THINK but true unfortunately.

Even sitting here now, after eating 4 x vitaweats with ham and cottage cheese plus 1/2 a pump bottle of water I feel like I'm 'cheating' somehow.

When I first had the op, I made sure I had all the right food in the house, every meal was lovingly made with the correct amount of protein etc. I stuck to the rules (ie. no drinking 30 mins before or after a meal) and was even exercising more often than not. Now I'm leaving meals to the last minute and then just throwing anything together which I can usually eat but doesn't have the correct amount of substance in it to keep me going to the next meal. I am living on coffee only (and bourbon hahaha) and haven't been drinking my water and exercise consists of walking to the car and back *sigh*.

Trying to think WHY, I have come up with a major that I think is the answer.
For the past 25 years I have constantly been on a diet, constantly thought about food, constantly felt guilty when I ate something I shouldn't because I knew it was going to put weight on. Now I realise I have been having a mini holiday of the mind. I haven't had to worry about any of that really because no matter what I eat or don't eat, I'm still in the honeymoon period and won't put any weight on - in fact, I'm still going to take it off.

So what am I doing about it?

I went to get the grocery shopping this morning and restocked my cupboards with the food I should be eating and preparing for myself and my family and it felt good.
I also went into Farmers (department store) and looked for a pair of 3/4 black pants for work and a pair of jeans and I got both in a SIZE 12.........SIZE 12. Major incentive!

I can honestly say that I can NOT ever remember being in a size 12 - EVER. I'm sure I must of when I was young (like 12 or 13 maybe) but never as an adult and I nearly started crying right there in the changing room. I also had a blouse that was a size 14 that also fit...........OMG, OMG, OMG!!!

That's when the lightbulb went on and I decided I liked being this size and I wasn't going up another size - so I'd better get my ass into gear and make sure that happens. I also reckon that even though I'm losing weight, I could be losing it quicker if I stick to the 'rules' and do what I know I'm suppose to be doing.

Right I know what to do, its just a matter of doing it now!

RANK AND BABBLE OVER........sorry.

Monday, November 01, 2010

Weigh in and photos

Last week: 77.6kgs
This week: 76.8kgs
Loss: -800g (total -33.3kgs)

Very happy to have even got a loss this week due to my bad habits creeping back in.
I actually had to get into bed last night before 8pm (my kids tucked me in ... haha) due to eating 2x steamed puddings that we got with some hangi's. They were really thick and stodgy (which of course made them so tasty) and even before the last mouthfull I started feeling quite light headed (but ate the last mouthfull anyway...dumb!!!) and within minutes my stomach was in agony, I was feeling like I was going to throw up and pass out at the same time. I just wanted to get into a fetal position, so off to bed I went after about 20 minutes of this and it carried on for at least another 15 minutes before I felt it starting to pass.

Belive me..........LESSON LEARNT!

I have had an incredibly busy 2 weeks with heaps of visitors (which I love) and birthday parties (the kids have had and gone to).
Reece just turned 9 years old last week and his father told him he could have a few mates stay the night and he would do lots of stuff with them.
We ended up with 3 of his mates (plus my 2) and they arrived at 4pm (Reece had already been to one of the boys parties that day so he was hypo before anyone arrived....great) with sleeping bags in toe. After presents were opened, it was into Nan and Papa's 4WD (its a 7 seater so we had to borrow it) and off to fishing they went. Thankfully Hubby wanted to do the 'boys only' thing (god love him!) so I stayed home and sat down in front of the TV with a coffee. Within an hour I got a phone call to say "come and get your little fella, he has fallen off the wharf into the water and is quite upset". Knowing Adam (said 6 year old) I wasn't surprised by this phone call and went and got him (sitting in the car with heater on and only his brothers hooded on....hahaha, so cute). He was a bit teary as he had gotten a big fright but luckily his father had scooped him out within seconds and there were no major injuries. The 4 x 9 year olds stayed on and didn't catch anything but had a great time. They all got home around 8pm and we ordered Pizza for dinner, they watched a halloween Shrek movie and then all packed up again (minus Adam) and went eeling for a few hours. Father caught 1 eel but they let it go again....all had fun apart from one boy who Andrew managed to scare half to death when doing the 'light under the chin' trick outside the car window at 10.30pm at night.....LOL.
Home, another short movie (with popcorn - photo below) and 4 very tired boys got into bed just before midnight. Lots of farting and giggling from their room for about 10 minutes and then peace...........ahhh.
Unfortunately the weather packed up on Sunday morning, so the golf game was cancelled but they did watch a 3rd movie plus play with lego and a new game Reece got off one of the boys, so all good. Last child dropped off at 11am.....yay!

Other news:
Andrew and I also got the Fort up (Castle) so I have also attached a few photo's of this. When it was laying down and we were painting it, it all looked like straight lines etc but have a look at the final product.......hahahaha. The kids didn't notice and thought it was cool so that was alright.

There are also some 'putting practice' photos as well of Andrew showing the boys how its done.

Photo's are in no particular order but you will work out which is which.