It amazes me that I have to hit rock bottom (or very close to it) before I get myself into action to lose this bloody weight. I jumped on the scales this morning 106.7kg....HELL. What was it, 3 years ago when I hit 110kgs that I couldn't take it anymore and lost the weight (got down to 86.3kg) and now I've managed to creep back up to 106.7kg *sigh* man this weightloss stuff sucks eh?
I know where I'm going wrong (food basically and the shit I'm eating plus the alcohol doesn't help either - oh and don't forget NO EXERCISE) and I know how to lose weight (I've done it dozen's of times) but I just don't. Its very frustrating because I know I can do it (again - I've done it a thousand times) but I just don't ----- why?
When I do get to a weight I'm proud of (with still more to go) and I'm feeling really good about myself I relax and relaxing for me equals trouble. I love it when I'm eating healthy and exercising (mainly because I can exercise and don't feel like a total blob) but I just don't seem to be able to hang onto that feeling.
STORY OF MY LIFE.
I really don't know what to do with myself. All the goals I set myself just disappear and I don't care. I don't know how to stop this yoyo dieting or 'lifestyle change' as alot of people like to call it but basically its dieting for me because I don't make a lifestyle change if I can go back to where I've come from.
Righto, I've finished feeling sorry for myself (for now), I'm going to look up my local weight watchers meeting and think about going back as the only time I lose any substantial amount of weight it is with weight watchers.
My Mum and two older sisters (all overweight) decided 5 weeks ago that we would all support each other and post our weights everyweek so we could see how we are going.
We all had a great first week but since then we have put on everyweek, my eldest sister has given up posting her weight all together.........wonder where I get this weight problem from...hahahaha.
On a brighter note, I have my mother in law (who I get on with famously) and 3 nephew's arriving tomorrow for a week (last week of the school holiday's) and I am looking forward to it as they are great kids (10, 12 & 16) and my mother in law is a fantastic cook and will hopefully give me a break over the week YAY.
Hubby and I get 3 days off a year with our business and 2 of them were Easter Friday and Easter Sunday, so we got our driver to work on Saturday and we headed off to Masterton to visit some old friends. We stayed at a fabulous revamped Solway Park Hotel which is very family friendly and apart from visiting our friend, we didn't leave the complex. There was a driving range (hubby was happy), a trampoline, indoor and outdoor pool (they only used the indoor - bit chilly), spa, games room (which was right next to the bar) and the room was 2 bedrooms with a kitchen and a TV in every room (kids loved it). I'll attach some photo's.
Apart from that it has been the same old thing up here. Loving the Hawkes Bay, loving our new lifestyle and very very happy (apart from the weight of course). Still getting lots of visitors but we love it.
The house is slowly getting donw (between visitors), we have now completed the tiles in the loo and all I need now is something to go up on the wall.
Dad's place has had the bathroom revamped (new floor, toilet and vanity) and just needs his bedroom recarpeted and that's him done.
Our kitchen is the next thing on the agenda but we have been putting it off as it is a major job and we know that once we start, we can't stop. The loungeroom is all done except for new curtains (I just haven't seen the perfect one's yet) and the hallway just needs some pictures or photo's up so it looks less boring.
Okey Dokey I'd better get myself off to bed, I'll just attach some photo's first.
Hope everyone is well, I try and get around to see how everyone is but I have been a bit slack.
4 comments:
We are in the same boat Re: weight. Bugger it.
So glad you are happily settled in the sunniest place in NZ! WEll it is isn't it?
Not that I can complain about Auckland, it's so much better than PN!
I did exactly the same as you for years. And like you I didn't really seem to care. Sounds a bit of a cliche - but then something clicked (don't ask me what!) I think I just got tired of losing, then gaining back more.
When you lose some weight it's so easy to become complacent, then pile it back.
WW was the one thing that helped me and at the time it was the only way I could have done it. Good luck Rachel.
Pleased to hear you enjoying the Bay so much! Good on you taking that long weekend away. I know only too well what the bakery business is like and how it must be to get a break.
And you called me a slacker... hahaha
Good to see you back girl..
Time to get your A into G and get happy again girl!
God - I cna't believe how big the boys are gwoing! They look so happy and healthy - YAY!!!
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