Sat down and thought about what gives me inspiration and the short answer is - Bloggers.
I am trying to get back into reading (and commenting) more often as I love the support blogging gives me, so I try and give a bit of that back.
I weighed in at 107.2kgs yesterday (Monday morning) and was obviously horrified but optimistic.
I know how to lose the weight and I WILL - End of Story!
I have quite a few big events coming up (Husband's 40th, Husband's school reunion, my 40th, sister's 50th, Mum's 70th and my babies 5th birthday in 2 months) and I want to feel good about myself, have photo's taken without cringing and enjoy myself.
I've decided the best way to do this will take 3 initial steps, first of all STOP BOOZING. I have gotten into a really bad habit of having a couple of drinks most nights and then a couple more on the weekend. I love wine but it doesn't love me so I went back to my original love (bourbon & coke) and it is FULL of sugar plus I can drink TONNES of the stuff.
Second thing is reduce my carbs - mainly BREAD! This is my biggest challenge as I am married to the ultimate BREAD MAN and I seem to be surrounded by bread (fresh, grainy, yummy bread) all day, everyday. This is going to take strength.
And thirdly I need to start doing some form of exercise - anything at the moment will be better than nothing. I have my beloved treadmill sitting here which I really want to get on but am too damn lazy so I figure I will just have to play with the kids more in the backyard to start with until I lose a bit of weight and feel like I can do more than 4 minutes on the damn thing (sounds like an excuse but that's how I'm feeling at present).
I figure if I just set myself 3 things to do, it won't kill me........right?
I'ts now Wednesday morning (12.05am) and since I started this post Tuesday night, I'd better get my butt into bed.
FEELIN GREAT, FEELIN POSITIVE, LONG MAY IT CONTINUE.
Night night.........
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Whoa is me update
Shit March 12 was the last time I updated - SLACKER!
It amazes me that I have to hit rock bottom (or very close to it) before I get myself into action to lose this bloody weight. I jumped on the scales this morning 106.7kg....HELL. What was it, 3 years ago when I hit 110kgs that I couldn't take it anymore and lost the weight (got down to 86.3kg) and now I've managed to creep back up to 106.7kg *sigh* man this weightloss stuff sucks eh?
I know where I'm going wrong (food basically and the shit I'm eating plus the alcohol doesn't help either - oh and don't forget NO EXERCISE) and I know how to lose weight (I've done it dozen's of times) but I just don't. Its very frustrating because I know I can do it (again - I've done it a thousand times) but I just don't ----- why?
When I do get to a weight I'm proud of (with still more to go) and I'm feeling really good about myself I relax and relaxing for me equals trouble. I love it when I'm eating healthy and exercising (mainly because I can exercise and don't feel like a total blob) but I just don't seem to be able to hang onto that feeling.
STORY OF MY LIFE.
I really don't know what to do with myself. All the goals I set myself just disappear and I don't care. I don't know how to stop this yoyo dieting or 'lifestyle change' as alot of people like to call it but basically its dieting for me because I don't make a lifestyle change if I can go back to where I've come from.
Righto, I've finished feeling sorry for myself (for now), I'm going to look up my local weight watchers meeting and think about going back as the only time I lose any substantial amount of weight it is with weight watchers.
My Mum and two older sisters (all overweight) decided 5 weeks ago that we would all support each other and post our weights everyweek so we could see how we are going.
We all had a great first week but since then we have put on everyweek, my eldest sister has given up posting her weight all together.........wonder where I get this weight problem from...hahahaha.
On a brighter note, I have my mother in law (who I get on with famously) and 3 nephew's arriving tomorrow for a week (last week of the school holiday's) and I am looking forward to it as they are great kids (10, 12 & 16) and my mother in law is a fantastic cook and will hopefully give me a break over the week YAY.
Hubby and I get 3 days off a year with our business and 2 of them were Easter Friday and Easter Sunday, so we got our driver to work on Saturday and we headed off to Masterton to visit some old friends. We stayed at a fabulous revamped Solway Park Hotel which is very family friendly and apart from visiting our friend, we didn't leave the complex. There was a driving range (hubby was happy), a trampoline, indoor and outdoor pool (they only used the indoor - bit chilly), spa, games room (which was right next to the bar) and the room was 2 bedrooms with a kitchen and a TV in every room (kids loved it). I'll attach some photo's.
Apart from that it has been the same old thing up here. Loving the Hawkes Bay, loving our new lifestyle and very very happy (apart from the weight of course). Still getting lots of visitors but we love it.
The house is slowly getting donw (between visitors), we have now completed the tiles in the loo and all I need now is something to go up on the wall.
Dad's place has had the bathroom revamped (new floor, toilet and vanity) and just needs his bedroom recarpeted and that's him done.
Our kitchen is the next thing on the agenda but we have been putting it off as it is a major job and we know that once we start, we can't stop. The loungeroom is all done except for new curtains (I just haven't seen the perfect one's yet) and the hallway just needs some pictures or photo's up so it looks less boring.
Okey Dokey I'd better get myself off to bed, I'll just attach some photo's first.
Hope everyone is well, I try and get around to see how everyone is but I have been a bit slack.
It amazes me that I have to hit rock bottom (or very close to it) before I get myself into action to lose this bloody weight. I jumped on the scales this morning 106.7kg....HELL. What was it, 3 years ago when I hit 110kgs that I couldn't take it anymore and lost the weight (got down to 86.3kg) and now I've managed to creep back up to 106.7kg *sigh* man this weightloss stuff sucks eh?
I know where I'm going wrong (food basically and the shit I'm eating plus the alcohol doesn't help either - oh and don't forget NO EXERCISE) and I know how to lose weight (I've done it dozen's of times) but I just don't. Its very frustrating because I know I can do it (again - I've done it a thousand times) but I just don't ----- why?
When I do get to a weight I'm proud of (with still more to go) and I'm feeling really good about myself I relax and relaxing for me equals trouble. I love it when I'm eating healthy and exercising (mainly because I can exercise and don't feel like a total blob) but I just don't seem to be able to hang onto that feeling.
STORY OF MY LIFE.
I really don't know what to do with myself. All the goals I set myself just disappear and I don't care. I don't know how to stop this yoyo dieting or 'lifestyle change' as alot of people like to call it but basically its dieting for me because I don't make a lifestyle change if I can go back to where I've come from.
Righto, I've finished feeling sorry for myself (for now), I'm going to look up my local weight watchers meeting and think about going back as the only time I lose any substantial amount of weight it is with weight watchers.
My Mum and two older sisters (all overweight) decided 5 weeks ago that we would all support each other and post our weights everyweek so we could see how we are going.
We all had a great first week but since then we have put on everyweek, my eldest sister has given up posting her weight all together.........wonder where I get this weight problem from...hahahaha.
On a brighter note, I have my mother in law (who I get on with famously) and 3 nephew's arriving tomorrow for a week (last week of the school holiday's) and I am looking forward to it as they are great kids (10, 12 & 16) and my mother in law is a fantastic cook and will hopefully give me a break over the week YAY.
Hubby and I get 3 days off a year with our business and 2 of them were Easter Friday and Easter Sunday, so we got our driver to work on Saturday and we headed off to Masterton to visit some old friends. We stayed at a fabulous revamped Solway Park Hotel which is very family friendly and apart from visiting our friend, we didn't leave the complex. There was a driving range (hubby was happy), a trampoline, indoor and outdoor pool (they only used the indoor - bit chilly), spa, games room (which was right next to the bar) and the room was 2 bedrooms with a kitchen and a TV in every room (kids loved it). I'll attach some photo's.
Apart from that it has been the same old thing up here. Loving the Hawkes Bay, loving our new lifestyle and very very happy (apart from the weight of course). Still getting lots of visitors but we love it.
The house is slowly getting donw (between visitors), we have now completed the tiles in the loo and all I need now is something to go up on the wall.
Dad's place has had the bathroom revamped (new floor, toilet and vanity) and just needs his bedroom recarpeted and that's him done.
Our kitchen is the next thing on the agenda but we have been putting it off as it is a major job and we know that once we start, we can't stop. The loungeroom is all done except for new curtains (I just haven't seen the perfect one's yet) and the hallway just needs some pictures or photo's up so it looks less boring.
Okey Dokey I'd better get myself off to bed, I'll just attach some photo's first.
Hope everyone is well, I try and get around to see how everyone is but I have been a bit slack.
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