Healthy to very unhealthy

Last week I was ON FIRE! I was doing my shakes, feeling great, getting a little exercise, drinking ALL my water plus some and just generally feeling fantastic.

This week.............disaster!.

Saturday

Spring fair, decided I would eat when I got home but ran late and didn't get home until after 2pm and then just started getting the food ready for the BBQ with our friends who were arriving at 5pm.

I then proceeded to make the salad's for dinner and kept popping things in my mouth that I usually never do. Now you would think alarm bells would be going off right about now but NOooooooooooo, onto the mango philly cheese with crackers and dip and don't forget the packet of chippies that I taste tested while Andrew went and picked up our guests.

I then ate 3 BBQ'ed sausages (not on the plan) and half a loaf of garlic bread (not good) a large piece of steak and minimal salad......WTF? I then proceeded to ice the chocolate eclairs and make the fruit salad and put the marshmellows out and had a huge bowl with everything in it???????

I'm sure the 2 bottles of wine did nothing to help me either.....*sigh*

I then got up Sunday morning and made Andrew his 'Father's Day' big breakfast as well as giving the boys eggs on toast and I just had 1 piece of toast (all good). When Andrew left for golf I then found my way to the pantry and ate half a bag of left over chips and 3 more sausages out of the fridge. I then made the boys lunch and had 3 sandwiches (yes 3) with vegemite and cheese on them. I had had no water for over 24 hours but about 6 coffee's.

This was about the time I started to feel really sick and bloated and had to think of what to make for dinner for Dad and Andrew (Father's Day again). I ended up roasting a chicken with pom pom potato's and left over salad (there was heaps thanks to me not eating bugger all the night before) and dinner rolls.

I finally gave myself a talking to and had a shake and was quite satisfied and not hungry so I sat at the table with the family while they ate tea (no promblems right?......wrong) and I started picking and ended up having 2 dinner rolls with chicken and stuffing on them.

I really have NO IDEA what that was all about because 9/10 times when I ate, I wasn't hungry. I'm not due for my monthly so I can't blame that and I had good choices to make (ie salad) but chose to eat crap........I am so kicking myself today.

This morning I've had my 30g WW cereal and trim milk and a shake for lunch plus 2.5 litres of water and feel 100% better (but not back to normal) and I'm at a loss as to why I did that to myself on the weekend. Looking back, I thought maybe because I was missing my carbs (ie bread) so just went crazy which may be right but I felt horrible, sluggish, bloated afterwards and do not want to eat bread the way I use to (only a month ago).

I have weigh in tomorrow night and pretty much think I have stuffed this week up but it is also my last week of protein shakes and I think I haven't achieved what I wanted (which was to drop a bit of weight faster than I usually do) but I will wait and see what the results are tomorrow night.

I don't think I will give the shakes away completely as I really rate them as far as stopping me snacking (ignore this past weekend) and really filling me up, so I might have one or two a week when I don't have time to eat properly.

OK, this is a horrible negative post and I just HATE being negative and down on myself but I can't hide from what I did and I have left this post to really late in the day (which isn't like me) because I didn't want to post what a bad weekend I'd had but then decided that I wanted to be honest and you guys need to know that there is good and bad weeks (no suprise to anyone I bet) and I have to face up to it rather than hide from it.

Rant over.......

On a brighter note, Leenie is in for her op today and I'm busting to hear from her hubby about how it all went (hurry up Craig!).